Who am I trusting?

Have you ever done a trust fall? The kind where you fall backwards and your partner catches you under the arms. I have. I was in the fourth grade and joined in with some kids who were doing this trust fall. I found a partner who I trusted could catch my body weight and we took turns falling. There would be the occasional bum that touched the ground during a close call fall, but no one was ever dropped. As kids were becoming bored of the game I was about to take my last trust fall. I checked to see if my partner was ready, put my arms out in the shape a "t" and leaned back. To my horror, the arms that I was expecting to catch me were absent and I was greeted with the unforgiving carpet-covered cement floor. The loud thud of my body hitting the floor rung loud in my ears and I laid there absolutely shocked. The air was knocked out of me and my head was throbbing from the encounter it had with the floor. I immediately looked for my partner in anger and disgust. I chose her as a partner for her strength, obviously not her attention span, which in my case was far more important. After I got over the embarrassment and pain of it all I vowed to never do another "trust" fall again.

My encounter with trust was broken.

The trust of humans fails. Everyone has had a promise that was broken and the sting of betrayal is hard to forget. With these broken trust experiences at the forefront of our minds, we often project those feelings and implications on God because few know any better or any other way.

Trust isn't trust until it is tested. It is easy to trust God when life is going perfectly. Do I still trust God when my hours get cut at work and I can't afford to pay rent? Do I still trust God when I am the only one of my friends who is still single? Do I still trust God when a member of my family gets diagnosed with cancer? When life looks bare and hallow with no possible way of solving things on my own, do I trust in Him?

Trust is easy until there is no other option but to trust.

 This is the type of trust where God has to intervene and make a way or it will be a complete disaster. This is the moment when I have to remove myself from the equation and surrender it to Him. The trust that I know He has my back, that He is planning things together for my good, and that He is in total and complete control. That He sees me in that moment and isn't going to turn away or make me deal with it on my own.

"You just need to trust God."

 I've said this before. I've genuinely meant it. I've really believed it too. But it's different when someone says it to me.

 What does that even mean? It seems too simple of an answer to my complicated questions. I've thought, "That's it? That's all I have to do? Where is my 7 step program to follow exactly and then wah-lah it's all fixed?"

I have to remember who I am trusting. He has never failed. Ever. To anyone. I am not trusting in man but in the God whose unfailing love surrounds those who trust in Him.

 Psalm 62:5  Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken. My salvation and my honor depend on God; He is my mighty rock, my refuge. Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge.

 Whatever you may be facing today, know that He wants to face it with you. He isn't intimidated by your circumstances. He isn't blown away by your questions. He knows you better than you know yourself and has everything that you will ever need. Pour out your heart to him in sincere unwavering trust.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."