One Trip

So I have this issue...I wouldn't consider it to be a serious one, but nevertheless it could be classified as a slight disorder. Every time I am taking things out of my car to bring inside I absolutely have to carry it all in one trip. Whether I am hauling in groceries, books, or most commonly, coffee cups, I have to strategically pile and balance the contents of my car in my arms . The thought of taking two trips is appalling and completely out of the question.

I have this almost down to an art. I will have multiple grocery bags hanging from my arms and at least one bag per finger. You can imagine how ridiculous this may look as I have to dig through my purse to find my keys and then attempt to unlock the front door. Yes, it makes so much more sense to take two trips, it may even save time too, but I somehow think I am capable.

This may be the competitive side of me coming out in a weird way but I'm realizing that it shows up in other areas of life as well. I am currently finding myself in a season that I am ready to be out of. I want to move on as quickly as possible and onto the next season. God uses tests, trials and hard times to build our character, which is never really a fun time. It is completely against my personal nature to revisit and return to things that I feel like I am already adequate in. God so often shows me things that I need to work on and I have to humbly face them. I naturally want to be out of a time of testing but I am learning to cherish these seasons for what they are, rather than rushing out of them and not allowing God to fully work out in me what He desires. I am learning that it is ok to go back for a second trip and surrender my time until God allows me to move on. I am focusing and working on my weaknesses; however long that may take.

God also wants to carry things for me. He doesn't like to see me struggling to carry the weight of my life. I was never built to bear these burdens. I am reminded that Jesus is ever-present to takeover the weights, struggles and pains in the very moment I decide to give them to him. Without delay or hesitation He takes them all. This is a season where I find myself taking day-by-day to draw closer to Him.

With that being said, I am still willing to dislocate my shoulder to only take in one trip from the car. No coffee cup left behind!